Wednesday, December 5, 2012

When you have a bad day...


Smile! Smile shine and bright. Wipe those tears away. Throw those worries aside. Because things are gonna be so much better if you look at them, smile, and say "you can't make me cry for you". :)

Your mum reads my blog.
Those whispers.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Decisions, decisions.


I was told to make a choice. I was to leave or to stay forever. To go on and start a new life or to look back and be bounded by the things that have been bounding me. To forget the past or be stuck in it. To remove all these 'acquaintances' or continue befriending them. I was so torn... until I came across this quote. Well it's not really a quote, but two paragraphs that woke me up from my indecisiveness.

"The man who refuses to judge, who neither agrees nor disagrees, who declares that there are no absolutes and believes that he escapes responsibility, is the man responsible for all the blood that is now spilled in the world. Reality is an absolute, existence is an absolute, a speck of dust is an absolute and so is a human life. Whether you live or die is an absolute. Whether you have a piece of bread or not, is an absolute. Whether you eat your bread or see it vanish into a looter's stomach, is an absolute.

There are two sides to every issue : one side is right and the other is wrong, but the middle is always evil. The man who is wrong still retains some respect for truth, if only by accepting the responsibility of choice. But the man in the middle is the knave who blanks out the truth in order to pretend that no choice or values exist, who is willing to sit out the course of any battle, willing to cash in on the blood of the innocent or to crawl on his belly to the guilty, who dispenses justice by condemning both the robber and the robbed to jail, who solves conflicts by ordering the thinker and the fool to meet each other halfway. In any compromise between food and poison, it is only death that can win. In any compromise between good and evil, it is only evil that can profit. In that transfusion of blood which drains the good to feed the evil, the compromise is the transmitting rubber tube."

I realized that there are pros and cons to every decision I make, but the right thing to do is stand by what I've decided. And if I ever made a wrong decision, then I should be strong enough to admit it and try to learn from my mistake. But if there weren't a right or a wrong to my decision, only people trying to knock me down, then I'd have to stand firm.

Your mum reads my blog.
Try finding me, will you?

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Mood swings?

This week, I have been...

DSC08337editAngry. Like, seriously angry until the point where I go mad. The kind of take the pumpkin and throw it to you to smash your face kind of angry. My temper is actually a big weakness of mine. I'm short-tempered. Easily mad. BUT I forgive people easily, so... I guess that sorta compensates for it :P

DSC08750edit Sad. Well... Can't really explain this but it's your Lynnie kind of sad... If you know me well enough, then you'd know what I'm talking about :)

DSC08418edit A glutton. It's not like I've been eating a lot... But I'm constantly hungry. So I tend to eat more. But I've been eating lotsa fruits though! :D Just me trying to be healthy. I have to or I'll get fat soon ><

Flirtatious. Sigh... This is even more unexplainable than my sadness. It's not like I'm intentionally flirting with people!!! But I find myself subconsciously flirting more. Ohemgee I don't want me to turn into some horrible bitch! I'll seriously, seriously tone things down. But the thing is... how do you tone down something you don't even notice yourself doing???

DSC08372edit But the most important thing is... I've been happy. Amidst all the anger, the confusion, the sadness, the hungriness, and the flirtatiousness, I've been truly, truly happy. Like a lot of burden have been lifted off my shoulders. :D

Oh me. Oh my. Finals next week. I should study, no? :/ Oh well. It's December already! Three months since I moved here. Time flies so so fast. It's so exhilarating, trying to keep up with the pace things are moving. I guess it needs some getting used to.

Your mum reads my blog.
In the arms of an angel.